God has made us special So unique in every way He has made us to be spirit And to trust we’ll find our way We are a truth so fancy So creative and divine We were made in Gods great image And will stand the test of time God knew what he was doing When  [ Read More ]

This had been the worst week of my life and I really know that both I and everyone who loves me can’t take this illness any longer. How much more am I going to let it take from me? I can’t handle anything and have gone so far backwards that there can’t really be any  [ Read More ]

I just want to be better. I just want to be able to enjoy a lunch with my family and not have anxiety levels that shoot right through the roof and put me in a horrible mood for the rest of the day. I just want to let it all go. We had a lunch  [ Read More ]

I wish i was, i wish i could, i wish i just knew how I wish i had, i wish i would, i wish i knew it now I wish i’d try, i wish i’d love, i wish i’d let it go I wish i’d change, i wish i’d learn, i wish this wasn’t so  [ Read More ]

My biggest problem i think right now  is that i have a bad attitude! I have a bad attitude about God right now. I have a bad attitude about myself. I have a bad attitude towards my recovery. I have a bad attitude about hope and faith. I have a bad attitude about trying. I  [ Read More ]

I really want to write about every bit of my journey in anorexia and trying to come out of anorexia because i have always been frustrated with the sugar coated stories i have read so far about how other people have recovered from this illness. They always seem to be great up until the point  [ Read More ]

What a wonderful world full of wonderful people who have hearts as pure as gold. This is a blog purely to say thank you to all the truly wonderful people who decided to take there time to build me up and help me to open my eyes and try and look at myself differently. I  [ Read More ]

My ed is causing massive problems for me right now and is putting massive strains on my relationship with Josh. I know I’m going backwards but I feel like that’s the only way I can have control over here. Josh is noticing heaps the diff in me and that is upsetting too. I don’t mean  [ Read More ]

Somehow I have to find the determination to choose life over an eating disorder. I have to rediscover that fighting spirit within me that would never allow me to be walked over the way anorexia walks over me everyday. I need to come to the rational conclusion that death is not better than trying to  [ Read More ]

If only I could only stop finding so much value in an eating disorder that I have created, and I could start to look and see that value in myself as one of gods beautiful creations, I can only dream of the wonderful place that my life might be in right now. A place so  [ Read More ]